I hope you’re all having an awesome Easter!
Today’s topic is addiction. I don’t think people realize that food is an addiction. Most of you that read my blog know that I live in Canada; the rest of my family live in the UK.
This weekend has been tough; i’m not going to lie. There are times when i’m OK being over here on my own – other times I struggle. I struggle more during the holidays.
When I struggle, I eat. That is something i’m trying to work on; but for me, and a lot of people, eating makes me feel better. Although really, it doesn’t.
At my local bakery they sell these sweet bread buns (I don’t really know what they’re called). They also sell sweet bread loafs. Between Friday night and this morning I ate 5 chocolate bars, 8 buns, 1 loaf and a whole tub of Ben & Jerry’s.
Even as I was eating it I didn’t really want to eat it. I guess, because I had purchased it; I decided it should be eaten. Once it had been eaten, I didn’t feel better – so I bought more. And then I ate that; and still didn’t feel better…
So I did a 2 hour bike ride! I felt a lot better.
And this is where i’m learning. In the past I used to turn to food; and I DID feel better. I have made a lot of progress. Exercise is now the thing that makes me feel better – sometimes my brain doesn’t remember that though; and I believe this is because i’m a food addict. Even though deep down I know that exercise will make me feel better; and even though it does make me feel better – my brain still tells me to get food. And A LOT of it. And sometimes; I make the choice to listen to my brain.
I honestly believe that food addiction is a real thing which is why I told the folks at WeightWatchers that even after I have lost the weight; I will continue to go to the meetings. I believe that just like an alcoholic has to work with their alcohol cravings (for the rest of their life); I will have to do the same with food. There will be times, perhaps even days at a time, when I will get the urge to go off the rails –
This is something I will struggle with for the rest of my life. If I don’t learn to “live with” the struggle / re-align the negative energy in to positive energy – I will never move forward.
That’s all for today guys. Enjoy your chocolate. I’m not having any because I ate far more that you’ll eat today over the last 2 days! lol! I know. I know. I should have just bloody waited; but honestly, at the time I felt I couldn’t.
Current Weight: 199lbs (down 25lbs);
3 months without alcohol.